Can you allow yourself to become empty? Can you allow yourself to release everything, the good, the bad, the hopes, and fears? Can you simply give it all up and ask Spirit to fill you back up with all you were created to be? Ask to be erased of all social and family programming, and be restored to your personal blueprint.
Sit quietly with pen and paper or your laptop. Take a few deep breaths and as thoughts of things, people, ideas, worries, dreams, fears, hopes, wishes, place, events, and circumstances come into your mind, write them out saying "I release this to Spirit" "I become an empty vessel ready to be filled with who I AM."
This process works well with house cleaning and clearing. You probably know the feeling of sadness as you choose to give up some of your treasures, even though they no longer suit your home or environment. As you put them in a give away bag, or garage sale, there is a twinge of regret. Do you also know the feeling of finally clearing space of garbage and broken junk, worn out and no longer useable? It feels good to finally throw the broken pieces in the trash. As you look around your uncluttered space, can you feel the sense of freedom and expansion? It is like you have a larger home.
Clearing your internal house creates the same expansion and freedom. Often it is harder to find the mental and emotional garbage. We seem to store the internal junk in a much deeper place than even the worn out christmas ornaments. Why is it so hard to let go of even the biggest hurts, and deepest pain? Do you notice you can more easily release your joy, hopes and dreams, than release your disappointments, jealousy and anger?
Strange how we find security in painful memories and history filled with ideas of loss and suffering. Some people would rather give up their brand new bedroom suite, than donate a piece of furniture reminding them of an unhappy relationship. Too often we give up marvelous opportunities, in order to hold on to the fear of failure, or perhaps the familiarity of that failure. We know the outcome, so there is less fear in staying stuck, just as there is familiarity in the worn out sofa purchased with our first spouse.
If you have ever had children, or are thinking about having children, ask yourself why. This may require some humor, especially for those of us who have finally raised our children and know the good and bad, the joy and pain accompanying the growing years.
Do you remember how you thought about the idea? Did you plan on having children so they could have a miserable life and create even more misery in yours? Did you plan to have children to inflict pain on suffering?
Why do you allow yourself to think your parents had you in order to give you the opportunity to be unhappy? An even deeper question - Why do you think you were created by Spirit? Do you really think your creator, wanted to express depression, pain and illness through you?
Look around at the never ending blue sky (it is still a deep clear blue above the clouds). See the lush green of the trees and grass, and even the abundance of clover, dandelions. Feel the gentle warmth of the sun on your skin, the gentle breeze. Open yourself up to the high energy of a thunder storm. Watch as the rain clears the dust and grime from the leaves of the plants outside your door. Even in the destruction Mother Nature occasionally unleashes, we find new growth and new beauty. There is never anything destroyed that is not replaced with even more beauty than before. Is there any part of you that can honestly say you believe you were created to live in lack, when all you see is the abundance and beauty of creation? Can any of you say you would create another being to live in lack of any kind? I think not.
So what if you created the internal storm, washing away both what you believe is good and bad? What if you allowed yourself to be free of anything and everything that is now, so that you could be refilled without prejudice or judgment of old worn out beliefs and memories? Wouldn't it feel amazing to let go of the heart break? If you give it a chance it will feel even better to be rid of what you think makes you happy, and find bliss and peace instead.
Try it - it may take several days, weeks, perhaps even months, but clear out the trash and treasure possessions deep within and on the surface. Make room and space for renovation and restoration. Give yourself permission to trust the Source of your Creation, the Source of your Supply. Just as you choose to give your children everything you can to provide them with all the love and support they need, your original Creator chooses the same for you.