Surrender

Having had a week of sitting in emergency rooms, hospitals, hotels, and long drives, I have had a lot of time to think. Believe it or not, my thoughts continually gravitated toward gratitude. I also found myself in a state of complete acceptance. At first there was panic over the unknown, and doctors who sometimes don't remember to listen to their patients. Feeling alone and desperate to ensure my daughters safety, I lost my usual strength and foundation. In a moment feeling no support from angels or humans, I let myself totally surrender to the Will of God. In one deep breath, I released all that is and ever was. In that moment all the support I desired and more showed up for me. Doctors and nurses began to listen, friends reached out to be there for my daughter. In exhaustion, I was given the energy to do what needed to be done.

What came out of that moment of surrender, was spiritual organization, aligning everything we needed to make the best of an unfortunate accident. And even as I say unfortunate, I ask, "What good has come of this?" For me it has been about giving up control, letting go of the need to make things right, accepting once again, there is a reason for everything. I hear the words, "slow down, let me do the thinking, planning and creating. All you have to do is be in the moment." I am so glad I listened to those words, for I could never have found a hotel in a city with no rooms, let alone find a place that would cater without being asked to a girl just our of surgery and in a walker. I could never have flowed with ease through all the hoops of picking up walkers, pillows, new shower heads, and paraphernalia needed for a newly handicapped girl. Somehow this was all done for me, and as I stayed fully in the moment, clear directions were given each step of the way. Not just friends but strangers quietly and eagerly went out of their way to ease our journey. I feel so blessed.

Somehow, what may have triggered guilt, anger and victimization, has resulted in even more gratitude for life, more acceptance of people and circumstances.

It is ever more clear to me that we do not have much control over the events in our life. We like to think we do, and perhaps that is what creates most of the problems we encounter along the way. We have gotten too attached to an idea that we are co-creators, leaving little room for the original creator to work the miracles that give our life depth, meaning and comfort. In any co-creation there must be a director, a lead player, and supporting roles. At what point did I decide I wanted to be all three? In even my most spiritual moments, I see now where I still held on to the role of director much too tightly. I believe most of do.

I invite you to take a moment to sit on the bench, looking out over the water, enjoying the leaves in all their color. Could you have created that all on your own. Take a deep breath and imagine the energy it takes to create just the right amount of rain, sun, wind, and weather to sustain this view. Do you have the perfect vibration within you to create such miracles and sustain them? Can you marvel at how earth continues to rotate on it's axis, keeping us planted firmly here?

How do we ever believe that we must be the sole creator of our world? How do we even believe we can be? Today I am grateful knowing that only good can come, when we surrender fully and completely to the one who created us for a purpose. I apologize for my arrogance and avoidance. Today I gratefully accept the Will of God, knowing this guidance and direction will never lead me astray. I am willing to play the leading role, or supporting cast in whatever measure is required of me.

In "Don't Change For Heaven's Sake" I wrote a chapter on letting someone else take the wheel. I had seen the power of allowing Spirit and it felt good, but somehow I lost track of that trust and faith. I am grateful to be reminded once again.

Are you ready to play your part, and allow the director to make this movie of life according to the script? I invite you to try it, even if just for a day.

In gratitude and blessings I offer this piece of my life, so you may see how most of our events are similar, even though we are strangers on this earth. We are all learning the same lessons, reaching for the same stars, and being assisted by the same creative energy. May you find the faith to let go, surrender and live in the moment, knowing you are loved no matter what.

Honoring Creation

I have studied and practiced energy healing with many exceptional teachers - Louise Hay, Deborah King, Donna Eden, John Randolph Price, Catherine Ponder. Marianne Williamson led me to "A Course In Miracles", nearly 20 years ago. Doreen Virtue showed me how to employ the angels I had so long believed in, but did not know how to properly address them or listen for their messages.

I am blessed to have been able to heal and remain reasonably healthy using the guidance of these angels and teachers, along with the assistance of natural practitioners when required. I see and feel the importance of their teachings at this time. The one thing they all have in common is that we are each our own healer, we all have the power to choose health. They also concur that we create our lives each day through our thoughts, prayers and intentions. It is time to stop looking for external sources to make us happy, healthy and wealthy. That is not to say you should never go to a doctor or financial expert, but instead of blindly following trends and treatments, begin to use your inner resources. Open your mind to the possibility that all you desire is yours if you will only turn your mind in the direction of what you want, rather than noticing it does not exist at this moment.

When I started this work over twenty years ago, I was desperate. I was also quite skeptical. The one thread holding all of it together was my belief in a power greater than myself, and so I began my journey holding faith and trust in that power. I also had a strong affiliation with Jesus, but to be honest I did not know how to access his healing power until I read the work of John Randolph Price. We have so much help, so much love, so much strength waiting to lift us up when we are ready. As I have written in many previous posts everything is energy. Our assistance comes to us in the form of energy, often in the guise of past mythical and mystical beings. Help comes in our dreams, and in the form of "earth angels" (people in this physical plane) created to link energy between heaven and earth. They are here as teachers, friends, guides and conduits of healing.

So often I am asked, "What if I do not believe in God, Jesus or a Higher Power?, Will the energy still work?" The answer is yes. Just begin the work and the power within you will take care of the rest. Teachers, books, miracles will show up in your life, showing you the next step. As you begin to affirm your wellness, peace, joy, prosperity, all will manifest in Divine Timing according to the faith you are prepared to exercise.

At first it may feel you are going backwards, as many things begin to fall away from you - possessions, friends, loved ones, stagnating beliefs, and even your health. Hold strong and continue to have trust in the process. What is happening is merely a cleansing of your soul, making room for new thoughts, beliefs and desires, congruent with your life purpose. Just as we cannot continue to fill our homes with old newspapers, magazines, case lots of food, more furniture, toys, and other "stuff", we cannot fill ourselves before clearing out the old.  The beginning process is house cleaning; a time to learn forgiveness, self-nurturance, and self-love.

Only from this place of acceptance and love can you begin to heal. This includes the healing of relationships and debt, as well as health. All can be made right, simply by choosing to move from a place of lack to a place of abundance. This choice must begin with you letting go of old grievances, old guilt, old anger. Release past pain, and heart-ache. It was important for you to have had experiences that caused deep feelings, but the importance was in processing and forgiving each event. You were never meant to hold on to the sludge that you have created in reliving the situation everyday, since the day of it's occurrence. You were never intended to create beliefs of "I can't", or "I deserve bad things". You were meant, with each experience, to expand compassion, to learn non-judgement and to pull from the depths of your soul, the ability to move forward, stronger and more determined.

From old experiences we become people-pleasers, not wanting to hurt another as we have been hurt, or hoping if we can make others happy, they will not hurt us, as we have been hurt in the past. We learn as little children, that we must sacrifice in order to have something good in our lives. What we need to see is what we give up for something better is not a loss. It is just growth and expansion. We do not create something disastrous for others because we create something wonderful for ourselves, unless we choose to gain by causing another to lose.

All the Creative Energy (God) asks of us is to put our focus on love, faith, trust, and to believe in our power to create as "It" created. I realized that striving for anything less than perfect health, happiness, peace and prosperity was an insult to the Energy that created me. In honoring Creation, one must choose growth and expansion, in love and compassion, for that is how we in fact came to be in this world. Creative Energy called man forth for the experience of the same beauty we see in nature, but trees and flowers, pretty as they are, were not created to think, we were. We were given dominion over this world because we were given the power of thought, action, word and quite frankly the same power of creation as our own creator. Holding back that power is to create injustice in the world. We were given tools to protect, grow and nurture. If you are unsure of how to set intentions, or create affirmations, in the name of your Creator, begin simply with "Thy Will be done" until the Will begins to show up in your daily life.

Are you ready to do your part in creating the world as our Original Creator intended it to be? Begin today starting with your personal creation of miracles and awesomeness, then allow your experiences to touch the lives of those around you.  You do not serve the world playing small, sick or insignificant. What is the lesson your lack is encouraging to learn? Step up to the challenge life is throwing you in this moment. Choose to experience health, joy, love, peace and prosperity because that is your exchange of energy with Original Creation. And so the energy of creation continues.......

It's All Energy

Everything is energy. I've known this for years. Color affects our moods, our health; it heals or it drains. This I have taught for years. And yet here I am again at the beginning, reminding myself of what I know to be true.

Energy is movement. We are movement. Our lives are movement and color. Movement and color are vibration reflecting who we are. How is it we find ourselves in a state of knowing who we are, yet in total contradiction, surround ourselves with that which is not us at all? Further more, why do we work so hard to change our core essence, our original vibration, when the original state is exactly who we were created to be? Full circle, back to "Don't Change For Heaven's Sake", living at the core of energy, the core of our existence.

How easily we choose clothes which drain our spirit, surround ourselves with colors that do not enliven our senses. We hear our soul calling but cannot answer back. We long for health and vitality, all the while living in opposition to our truth. We find a role model who seems to be what we would be, and begin to fashion ourselves in their image, not noticing we are masking our own truth.

We fall out of sync with our personal design, our homes the perfect decorating magazine or filled with clutter as we try to live with who we wish we were instead of who we really are. We keep those favored ornaments and pictures, given by friends and loved ones along the way. We cannot let them go for they are memories, how our friends and family have seen us through the years. So we hang on to their perception, afraid they would not love the soul we truly are. Amongst those trinkets we have placed our longing to be free and in the midst we find not truth, but mere acceptance of the mess we created in our journey, unable to release the past, and still hopeful for a future filled with bliss.

Such contradiction causes the storm within ourselves, and so without, mirrored in the fierce winter storms, tornados, hurricanes.  We see and feel the horror of this physical reflections, blaming nature and higher powers for our predicaments, yet never look within to stop the raging there. Energy pure and simple must be what it is, for it can be nothing else. Each of us must find balance within, so what is above, below and beside and can also balance itself out again.

And we would accept and cling to the physical pain, the emotional struggle, to hang on to what is not ours to keep. Our need to be the power goes so far that we would rather control than be well. If we admit we have been out of touch with ourselves, release the false beliefs, and return to our original energy state, how different would life be?

It is not that we are drained of energy, or out of vitality, for that can never be. That is all we are, that is all everything you see around you is - pure energy. It cannot be lost, only misdirected. It cannot be drained, only resisted. It can never be too much, only misunderstood. Each of is a unique energy system, and when we allow ourselves to be as we were created, accepting the energy we were given, and flow with the natural vibration as inspired within us, we find the depth and beauty of life. In balance we begin to balance the forces around us. In balance, we find our true desires, always there. Health, joy, love, peace, wealth, all in abundance.

This I write with hope and promise for 2014. As you set your goals and dreams for the coming year, ask not, "Who am I?" or "What is my path?"  Instead, know you are you, a perfect creation. Know your path is to live on this earth, integrating your unique energy with others to create a world of harmony, fulfilling the experiences as they arise, and trusting that each day will bring new opportunities to express the truth of your creation. In faith, know you are here for a reason, and the reason will be revealed, when you allow your energy to flow freely, without restriction of social programming, the latest fashion magazine, or the undue influence of others.

Decide today, to begin anew this coming year. Be you, the energy of you.

Many Blessings

Rainbow Meditation

This picture gave me a place to sit and give thanks for the perfection of life. Find a place on the sand, sit down, feel your feet anchored into the earth, take a few really deep breaths and allow your body to fully relax. Let your eyes go a little out of focus so the colors of the rainbow expand and blur together over the sky. Let your heart open, as you breathe even more deeply and release all resistance to finding gratitude and peace. Give your troubles, worries and fear to the rainbow. Watch as the pain is absorbed and transformed by the colors and movement of the breeze as you sit there on this deserted beach. Know that you are not alone here. Feel the presence of something grand and glorious. Fill your being with a feeling of strength, joy, and appreciation for all you are and all you can be. Let the rainbow colors wash over you as you relax even more, noticing the tension release from your facial expression, your eyes soften, your shoulders become loose and limp.  Do not try to think of reasons to be grateful, do not force the feeling of joy, peace, love, abundance. In this moment simple be that. Simply be.......

Stay here as long as you like; come back whenever you like. Etch this picture in your mind so you can come here no matter where you are. Notice the froth of the waves brought on by stormy weather, the clouds, obscuring the sun for a time, and see how this reflection is your life. For even in times of sadness and sorrow, there is a gentle breeze coming, a rainbow bridge to better times, and promise of a shining sun reflecting the colors of life. Let the rainbow colors reflect the experiences you have, gently creating who you are - strong, glorious, loving, abundant.

When you are ready, stand up, give yourself a bit of a shake, stretch your arms high above your head, and release ........... You are now ready to face any part of your day, grateful, inspired, at peace.

Blessings